Absence

This Is How It Feels Like

Often,
I think of you
Calling you by name
Instead of by respect
That always made you laugh...
My crave for good food
That spicy fish sambal
That semolina payasam
That simple rasam
Will never be satisfied
Not in this lifetime

The puzzle
Will remain unsolved
For you took a piece..
It will remain incomplete
For the whole of this lifetime
For you will not return...

But my life will go on
Longing for you
Every now and then
I miss you more
During this celebration
For the joy
Is not the same without you
The preparation lacks happiness
Lacks laughter
Most importantly, lacks crowd...
It's not only your absence
But it's the absence
Of the entire Family...

Anytime

I worry

It concerns me

the Happy Waters

the flood incident

But it makes sense...

I know now...

Heartbreaking 

Knowing it would kill 

Maybe slowly but surely 

It ain't easy

To let go and accept

To hold on and then move on...

My dearest, 

Remember when we agreed 

it is okay to cry? 

This is not sympathy

This is me,

wanting to be the shoulder 

For You to cry on

Anytime You need one

ANYTIME that is...

♡♡♡ 

~My dearest Hey You, I know You are not taking it well. But I believe You should get a grip and face this. There shouldn't be regrets. ♡♡♡~

For You I Will

For You I Will

It's been rough lately
I've realised
Hence the Happy Waters...

I noticed
The old habit
Intensely immensed
Little did I know...

I've always 

had my doubts 

But I prayed anyway 

For Her, for You

But solely for You...
Just For You...

I hopefully thought
They were being answered
I'm not so sure anymore
I hate to be unsure
When it comes to You...

I'll be the pillar
If You need one
I'll be the grip
For You to hold on
For I know You,
You will never
Ever ask...

Let me, My Dearest
Share Your sorrow
Hold Your tears
Walk hand in hand
And face this together
For
As much as it torments You,
It kills me...


~I suck at making anyone feel better in any situation. Hence, I never bothered to even try. But For You, I will. A gazillion times. If You just let me... ♡♡♡~