If I Die Young

*An edited post from a blog which I've written on June 11, 2007*

SUICIDE - Here are some facts & figures :
a)In average, 7 people commits suicide each day in Malaysia
b)Nearly 2000 people commits suicide per year
c)It is estimated that suicide will be the second leading cause of death among Malaysia, after heart attacks

Suicide is ALWAYS RELATED TO STUPIDITY. Mention the word "suicide" and u can hear people going "That’s mere stupidity" or "How stupid can that be?"

One will not say suicide is pure stupidity if he/she had been suicidal or even had suicidal thoughts. Take note that I’m not promoting suicide nor I'm saying suicide is the way out. THIS IS MY PERSONAL POINT OF VIEW!

Being depressed once, I’ve always wondered should I live another day and I cursed myself for being alive. I felt so miserable and emotionally in pain. I hated every single thing about my life and was hoping for the fine day where I can actually end it. I USED to think suicide is an option to get away from problems. I’ve never tried anything massive though but the thought was always there. Seriously speaking, I didn’t really have the guts to actually hurt or kill myself but Ive always wondered how does it feel like to die and what’s life after death is all about.

Suicide to me is a decision made after a VERY long consideration. It’s not easy to decide on taking your own life, furthermore if it causes loads of pain and suffering. How many of us are really capable of taking our own life even if it cause you less pain such as consuming excessive sleeping pills and sleep yourself to death. When one had decided to commit suicide, it means that the person had already taken it into long consideration(be it for a rational reasons or not) and truly realize the consequences of their action. (Like duh!!)

People choose suicide as they feel there are no more options or ways to solve their problems, pain and sufferings. They come to a point where no matter how much they crack their skull to solve their problems they could only find a dead end and there is no other options available other than suicide. It’s a step taken to end all the sufferings and pain.

I truly look up to those who commits suicide or even attempts it. It’s a very bold and brave decision to take. It takes an awful load of courage to actually take your own life, facing the pain, dying little by little till the very last breath, waiting for the moment to be free from all the damned things in life. Whether they're able to find peace or true happiness through death is another question.

A friend of mine once told that she read from a religious book which said when a person commits suicide, the soul lingers. It would be stuck between the life and death until the time when they are really suppose to have died, and only then the soul would proceed to life after death! I've always wondered how true it is.

I bet that people believe that there is a reason behind every single thing in life. But how many of us applies it to death caused by suicide? If a person dies naturally, we accept it as God’s will. But why is it that when someone commits suicide, it is never taken the same. Logically speaking, If God would want you to live, He wouldn’t even initiate the thought of suicide. Everything that happens is God’s will. So, in God’s will, people commits suicide. So, it’s not wrong after all. If one were to think suicide is stupid, then God would be stupid as well. I'm not condemning God or what so ever but just speaking my mind.

But, I truly feel there should be some exceptions on the reasons to commit suicide. First of all, do not commit suicide for another person. That’s definitely not worth. This goes for all those soppy freaks who takes drastic decision on taking their life just because of love failure. Your life is so precious, why would you wanna waste it for someone who’s not even worth anything in your life. When you decide on anything, decide for yourself and not for others. After all, this is not worth the risk.

Curiosity of what life after death is all about can really be intriguing but have you heard, "CURIOSITY KILLS THE CAT??" Yeah, once you kill yourself, it’s undone. So, decide. You wouldn't want to regret after committing suicide, in which I think you actually will.

It’s all in your hands though. Think wisely and decide! Don’t regret later on as it can’t be undone.

I would dedicate the song If I Die Young by The Band Perry (click to view) to all that has been there and done that.