Chasing Trifectas & Life Altogether

2019 has been all about chasing Trifectas and life altogether. Initial aim was 2 Trifectas but it escalated to 3 and the cherry on top : a 2nd place podium win for the Spartan Beast Iskandar Puteri.

Spartan Beast Iskandar Puteri

I spent MOST of my time (and money) at the gym and outdoor (hiking, trekking, chasing waterfalls). As much as I refused to compromise on my trainings, I do have a balanced social life and an ever growing circle of FRIENDS : the Durians, the Knights, the Walk In The Park, the Hardcore Kuching Spartan and many more...

the Durians

Knights 

~Walk In The Park~

Despite the number of extreme breakdowns I had this year, I got my shit together and dealt with it. It tested me as a person overall, questioned my quality as a person, and how I should always see the bigger picture of anything and everything there is. I took time and space to regain my sanity and self - peace, risking on losing some pretty significant people but gaining the centre of my universe, for the better.

Centre Of My Universe

At work, apparently my assholic traits have reduced and I'm more understanding. My colleague claimed I smile more and am more approachable. From being bashed on FB for having a sourface (read RBF) back then and now turned to being approachable and understanding is definitely a big change on my side. 😊

A day before Spartan race, I received this text from Zahra.

All I did was encouraged her during the trainings at the gym. Simple deeds goes a long way indeed. My dearest Zahra, thank you for this. Will always keep this close to my heart. 🤗🤗🤗

Dina, started her weightloss journey with my guidance in September 2018. After a year, she has lost almost 36kg and currently sustaining a well balanced, healthy lifestyle. My dearest Dinz, your transformation and will to change should be an example for many out there. Thank you for putting your trust in me and assuring that I can pursue being a fitness coach in future. Just don't shrink further and lose that ass. 😜😜

Take A Chance, Make A Change

I have explored more of Kuching's hidden treasures and did some impressive (or maybe not) life threatening stunts. From trail runs to going through swamps and then camping, only to be hit by high tidal waves was a very memorable experience. It tested my will, my paranoid nature and my OCDs. 😂😂😂 I have no regrets and I would do it all over again. My dearest Fazi, Edi and Walk In The Park Gang, thank you for all the trips and adventures. 😘💝

Me Against The World

Being an avid reader, this year I did rather poorly. I managed to read only 12 books for the whole year. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ But I finally managed to get My Friend Leonard by James Frey, the sequel to A Million Little Pieces. A great read, raw and very thought provoking.

Done with chasing trifectas, I took up boxing lessons. Still a noob at it though. Trying to manage my limbs' orientation is no joke 😅😅. Will get there with more practice, I'm sure. 💪🏼👊🏼

It has been a hell of an achievement this year. Be it my progress in sports or as a person overall. Of course, next year will most probably be about chasing trifectas as well, but hopefully with a well balanced schedule and lifestyle overall. 😁😁

Bangkok : It's A Wrap

Wrapping up 2019 in Bangkok. 💃💃💃 Happy New Year peeps!! 🎉🎊

Never Try, Never Know

Spartan Race was held in Sarawak for the first time on 19th and 20th October 2019.
Although I've participated in a few Spartan Races before, this race is super special and one that is very close to my heart. This time, I participated the Sprint with my family from KnightPTC. I was questioned by many of my friends on why would I choose to run in the open category when I am capable of doing the competitive one. Here's why :

My family from KnightPTC, almost all of them, first timers, signed up for the Spartan Sprint Open. I thought it would be fun to do it together with them since we worked hard, training for the race. And I have no regrets at all.

All of us trained our asses off for the past 3 months. Many started the training regime by not being able to even run ONE round around the block but eventually progressed to completing 10 rounds non-stop. Many started by not being able to do rope climbs, monkey bars, Z-wall but now, they master them like a boss.

Prior to the race, many was skeptical bout their capabilities. They were doubtful whether they can even do any obstacles at all. They were afraid of leeches. They were mindful about the muddy course. Many kept saying they won't be able to do certain obstacles. Many planned to just succumb to doing the burpees without even attempting the obstacles. Nevertheless, they didn't withdraw. They were still willing to participate and race with integrity.

As much as we all had the race jitters, we raced on the eventful day with a huge smile on our faces. We did it with full integrity and we complete it all. And the outcome of it all, priceless. We got a huge sense of accomplishment in being out of our comfort zone. We helped each other, we laughed hard during the race and it was all fun. Some even did the Beast race on the next day.

Shoutout to Yanti and Stephen from KnightPTC, for nurturing us in becoming a better sportsperson. For always motivating and laying things out as it is. For always pushing us further for improvement. For always putting that effort to help us in many ways, especially in being a friend and a coach at the same time. Not everyone can or willing to do that.

To my fellow KnightPTC gang, you guys are amazing. I'm super proud and in total bliss to have run the Sprint course with you guys. It was so much fun. Thank you for not giving up, for trying, and be willing to improve yourselves. I know I kinda push you guys during training sometimes but that's because I know you guys are capable of doing better. There's always room for improvement. Always remember: Never Try, Never Know.

KnightPTC Gang

Post Race 

~34 And Alive~

Looking At The Bright Side

10th September : Apparently it is Suicide Prevention Day. What a total joke. Joke's on me. 😂😂

I turned 34 yesterday. Currently reading My Friend Leonard by James Frey. It's a sequel to A Million Little Pieces. Both the books are totally mind boggling, thought provoking and raw. So raw you literally feel you are bleeding emotion. Every damn flow of thoughts is relatable and deep.

Referring to the book, when James (the author) got a promotion while working at a bar, he bought himself a cake and buried his face in it. I thought that was an absolutely simple but a satisfying deed and decided I should get myself a fucking cake and devour it all by myself. And I did. Though it didn't change a thing about the thoughts of my birthday, I felt good about it. It made me smile. It made me happy.

Why 34 and Alive? Coz that's the bitter truth. I could have died anytime in between my birth up till now but I did not. I survived every fucking thing thrown at me. I survived every emotional turmoil I was put through by dramas, books, people and everyday incidents. Hence, it's a fucking achievement, just to be alive.

Period.

Empty Space

Only You Could Fill This Empty Space

How very fond I am towards you
Even after all these years of silence...

Even when you mock me ruthless

Even when you ridicule my efforts, every single one of them

How very fond I am towards you
Even when you are being toxic

Even when you threw me apart,

I'm left with an empty space for you to fill

How very fond I am towards you
Is something I can't explain in words,
let alone in action.

That empty space will always be vacant. Always.

Overdue

Hopes sky high
Not wanting to let go
There will be
There must be
There should be
A tiny slit, maybe?
What a joke...

Nil...
Nothing permeates through
Stagnant with indifference
Unwillingness, ignorance

Whatever could be
Whatever would be
Whatever should be
Has been long overdue
Long overdue...

I tried.....