Dear Dad

"Are you planning to quit?? That means you'll have to look for a new job once you're done. Will you even get a job in the first place?? Is it possible for you to go back to your current workplace after that?" ~From My dad

I know that he didn't mean to discourage me in anyway. It's just the typical mentality of him that worries about me starting from scratch again despite of my age. And Dad, "HELL NO! I'm not going back there". I wish I could say that to him. =P

I often wondered where life leads all of us to. Of course, most parts of life is actually what we have decided on and some parts of it just came along. To look at it in an uninteresting way, life is all about growing up. It's actually a monotonous life we lead here. As far as I know, Asians (or is it just Malaysians) has a very monotonous lifestyle.

You grow up, you go to school, college then you get your ass a secured job. Then you get a car, then you just work your ass more and more and get a house. Then you hunt for a partner (or just because you are scared to end up all alone for the rest of your life, you get yourself hooked to someone). You get married, have a child or two or a football team. Then, you work even harder to support your family, to educate your children. You try your very best to refrain your children from making mistakes. Your children will go through the same shit you got through and you get to watch it. Only thing is that your children learn shit on their own as they are not allowed to make any mistake.

Let's look at life from another point. How many of us got our dream job?? How many of us actually strive towards excellence and work for that dream. We tend to grab every job opportunities that pays well, without thinking for our own self satisfaction. If it makes us happy in some ways, that would be good enough. But what if it doesn't?? We have to dread ourselves every morning to go to work. Just because the job pays well, it doesn't assure you to happiness. Attending a job that you hate is never going to make you happy even if you earn a lot. Being in a shitty job drains you even more than you could ever imagine. Trust me on that.

Of course, money is everything now. As the lame saying goes "No Money No Talk". But, what's the point of being a millionaire if you have to live in misery and not even a tiny bit piece of you is happy. On the other hand, if you've chose to ignore your own happiness and just focus in the money itself, that's a different issue. But, there will be a point of time where you'd look back and you'll realize your job had drained so much off you for the money you're getting paid. Somehow, it's never late to just get a grip of your life and start all over again - since you've got the money. =P

If you think it's too late to follow your dream, think again. It's never too late. It's all about the self satisfaction and accomplishment that you feel once you get there. As the saying goes "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a step". Grabbing opportunities is one thing and living your dreams is another. Given a chance, I would rather live my dreams and have all the tiny bit piece of me HAPPY. I wouldn't want to dread myself for the everyday routine and live in misery, doing something I never had the passion in. I would like to die doing what I love the most. It has been decided and I'm going to follow suit.

And Dad, I really don't bother whether I'll get a job later on because all I want to do is follow my dream. That's making me HAPPY and I'm going for it!! I know you'll never stop worrying about me starting from scratch again. But at the same time, I know you'll never stop me from doing what I have always wanted to do. And I thank you for that. =)

p.s : I Love You, Dad

How Is It Possible

...You ever love somebody so much, you can barely breathe....
...Now you're getting farqing sick of looking at 'em...

~Phrase from Eminem ft Rhianna: Love The Way You Lie~

It's so surprising to feel so annoyed and disgusted to just look or talk to the person that once had meant the whole world to you. How could it even be possible to feel such way?? Well, MAYBE ... :

It is possible when time and distance comes in the way. When the commitment of being committed in a relationship (regardless of the type) is not being fulfilled, the total concept of the relationship changes.

It is possible when in time, both party tend to take the relationship for granted. Either they are bored and tired of each other or they never had the time to spend together that it pulled them apart.

It is possible when both parties are separated by distance. Distance may cause drifting apart in a relationship but an effort put to bridge in and maintain a relationship makes a huge difference. And of course, coming from only one side isn't going to make a difference in any way.

It is possible when only one party is putting all the efforts into maintaining the relationship but the other party is just taking it as it goes. In short, there's only giving from one side and taking from the other side. There's no even distribution of the give and take policy. There's a point in life when you get so tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. It is not giving up but it's realizing that you don't need certain people and the bullshit they bring.

It is possible when the sense of security and passion is not present. Sense of security and passion - one of the main key in a relationship. Without this key, relationship is going to be locked up for good.

It is possible when once upon a time, only the presence of that particular person was sufficient enough but now, the sight of the person itself piss the shit outta you.

It is possible when once upon a time you had so much of communication and now you barely have anything to say to each other. Communication breakdown itself brings a huge difference in a relationship.

People Just Make Me Talk

Out!