I Laughed

~Let Go & Let Live~

You know Facebook has got this Shit Memories To Look Back thingy based on the statuses and photos that you have posted? Right.

So, few weeks back, my status was 'Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah' (Today In History), refering to a major heartbreaking event in the year 2003. When this memory popped up, I smirked and burst out laughing, only to realise that exactly 14 years ago, I updated this status being full swing emotional : heartbroken, depressed and fucking angry with myself. Something so emotional once upon a time had now become what I would consider a laughable matter....

I laughed...

At the emotional turmoils I had faced

For the the nights I have cried myself to sleep, 

Putting every possible blame solely on myself...

I laughed...

At my ability to love another whole heartedly 

But self-loathe to the very core of my cells 

Armoring anger as self defense...

I laughed...
For I once believed in always and forever
But now - it's just 'Let's See How It Goes'
I've learned the hard way
Carrying all that grudge for more than a decade
But all it took was a genuine smile and a hug
To let go and let live...

Life and things we deal with are actually very simple. What complicates it is our emotions, how we react and deal with it. I wouldn't claim that I am great in dealing with my emotions but at least I don't self-loathe anymore. Letting go of that grudge has made me live just a little better.

Let's learn to love ourselves just a little bit more. ♡♡♡