...Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world, Where they can be alone...
~Beautiful by Eminem~
Just exactly how She chose to be since the past few months. Decided to be on her own - without depending on any friends. It's not that She's dependent on them in any way-NO! SHE WAS NOT.
She realized that even with so many people around her, She felt so much alone. Even when She was out with people, She doesn't feel the company around her. She only felt the loneliness of being in a world of her own.
Hence, She self-deprive herself from everyone.The people whom She had known for ages, they became her acquaintance- heck, even strangers. She barely talks to anyone but herself and her family members. It doesn't bring her anywhere but to a self satisfaction that She don't have to have any hope and expectation towards people in any way. She saved herself from disappointment in many ways.
When She was in trouble, She know She can count on NOBODY but HER OWN SELF. She work her own way to get out of the trouble She gets in. She learn from the mistakes She did. She has more strength than She thought She had. She boost her self confidence by trying the new things she had always wanted to try.
Somehow, the loneliness still crept into her at times. Someone once told her that if She continues being the way She is, She will turn out to be a bitter old woman. There's no need reminders. She knew that all along. But She couldn't care less. She only thought - She'd rather be all alone anywhere on her own than to be surrounded by people and feel all alone deep inside her. Of course, what's the big difference? It may end up to the same thing but the impact on oneself differs in many ways.
She's so used to being lonely that it's the only thing that She can rely on nowadays. And all you thought was,"She's just trying to run away from her own problem." But looks like She's doing well so far. She knows She'll get there. And She'll see you when YOU get there.
And I,
Just exactly how She chose to be since the past few months. Decided to be on her own - without depending on any friends. It's not that She's dependent on them in any way-NO! SHE WAS NOT.
She realized that even with so many people around her, She felt so much alone. Even when She was out with people, She doesn't feel the company around her. She only felt the loneliness of being in a world of her own.
Hence, She self-deprive herself from everyone.The people whom She had known for ages, they became her acquaintance- heck, even strangers. She barely talks to anyone but herself and her family members. It doesn't bring her anywhere but to a self satisfaction that She don't have to have any hope and expectation towards people in any way. She saved herself from disappointment in many ways.
When She was in trouble, She know She can count on NOBODY but HER OWN SELF. She work her own way to get out of the trouble She gets in. She learn from the mistakes She did. She has more strength than She thought She had. She boost her self confidence by trying the new things she had always wanted to try.
Somehow, the loneliness still crept into her at times. Someone once told her that if She continues being the way She is, She will turn out to be a bitter old woman. There's no need reminders. She knew that all along. But She couldn't care less. She only thought - She'd rather be all alone anywhere on her own than to be surrounded by people and feel all alone deep inside her. Of course, what's the big difference? It may end up to the same thing but the impact on oneself differs in many ways.
She's so used to being lonely that it's the only thing that She can rely on nowadays. And all you thought was,"She's just trying to run away from her own problem." But looks like She's doing well so far. She knows She'll get there. And She'll see you when YOU get there.
And I,
